A large problem for me, this alignment. Not a question of how much time I spend in my studio, but using that time in the best possible way.
I feel like the proverbial Jack of all Trades! I am constantly on the search for "my thing". I sew, embroider, draw, paint watercolor, oil and acrylic, I dye and print fabric, I collage all kinds of things, I bind books and create vessels. I do love it all but have tried to make some kind of priority list, knowing that this will change from time to time. So I guess this list of loves will be good for now.
Although I know that we each have a personal style as unique as our own signature, I find myself always searching for mine. Maybe I'm searching too hard and should just let it happen.
About perfection: I wrote a paragraph about what my dream art life would be like if I could have whatever I wanted and had no one to please but myself. It was a fun exercise indeed! I won't write all the details here but it made me set a few goals for myself. It also let me see that these goals are not impossible.
And finally, I did a critique of a piece I made this past summer. I applied for acceptance in an important exhibition and was refused. Perfect moment for self analysis. It is called "The Unseen Women" and is 2x1.2 meters large. After reviewing this piece, I know exactly why it wasn't accepted.
1. I didn't start with a written plan. I usually do, but for some reason skipped this step. A recipe for disaster.
2. I worked with a kind of nervousness that was self destructive. The less time I have in the studio, the faster I think I need to work. This can be a waste of time in the end.
3. I did not engage the principle elements of design. No focal point, no contrast, no balance, no obvious story follow through.
And here is what I like about it:
1. The drawings. They show the emotion I wanted to portray.
2. The fact that it looks like a brick wall until you walk up close and the various women are revealed. (They are the real support of the structure!) This is in direct contrast to having a focal point, but it creates a moment of surprise.
3. The texture created by the use of rice paper and paint in the wall.
From now on I will write a short critique of each piece I make. I found it very helpful.