Sandra O.

Dismantling the Committee and Talking About the Tribe

I’ve thought about this a lot this week, and reread Jane’s notes a number of times.  I’ve focused on four people on my committee, but over the years as I lacked confidence in what others thought about anything that I made, everyone would have been on my committee.

I’ve worked hard over recent years attending courses and workshops and becoming a textile artist, but these four people, all key people in my life, can still raise in me a lack of confidence and uncertainty that my work won’t meet with their approval.  Yet they wouldn’t know how I feel.  I tend to pick up clues from body language or what is not said, as well as what is, and yet this can be so dangerous as I then read meaning into a situation that isn’t necessarily there.

The other side of this situation is that I also receive so much from them that is supportive, instructive, inclusive and encouraging that I want them in my life.  So, it’s up to me, to sort and sift, ask questions, pick their brains, listen, listen and learn, and continue to create and do the best I can.